Prepare for an awkwardly, long, terribly grammar-ed and rather emotional post.
Ok, so its been over a year I think since I last posted. or longer. And since that year, I went from the very very bottom of the barrel, to being happier than I've ever been.
The story goes like this;
Towards the end of 2012, when my Grandma/Grandpa were dying, or had died in my Grandpas case..
We moved to Dayton, Dayton is a gigantic monopoly of drugs. Drugs, Gangs, Death, Police. That is about all there is to that god for saken place. I don't recommend visiting.
We moved to Dayton, long story short I ended up losing my job, my car, my mom got on drugs, I got on drugs and then it just went to the bottom from there. And when I mean bottom, I don't mean the bottom of a fuckin' empty bottle. I mean more like the bottom pits of hell.
I do not know, I truly do not know how I made it out alive.
Actually thats a lie, a HUGE. HUGE fucking reason I am alive today is because of guys like Caleb, Baker, Wetz, Kahrs and quite a few of you. You guys seriously do not know the impact you had on my life. Without you showing the love and care you did for me, I would be dead. I can safely say that. I had NO family, naturally no friends. My friends who I were buddies with for over 15 years left me cold when I needed them most. But you guys were here for me in the beginning, through it and are still my really good friends to this very damn day. And from the sincerest part of my black heart, thank you. Thank you for that.
Today, I am living with my REAL Dad, my Step mom, I am closer than anything with my 2 beautiful nieces (If you have me on Facebook you know how much I love those kids, I post about 97 pictures a day with them LOL). I have 2 jobs, Cassanos and a place called Total Towing. I am buying a car within the next week or two, I am buying my own phone, my own insurance, everything. I am making DAMN sure to do this on my own. I do not want to hear any motherfucker say I didn't earn what I had. I won't let that come out of anyones mouth and the only way for that to be, is to work my little ass off. And I am, and guess what?
I love it. I love work, I love keeping busy. I love cutting the grass, walking around, looking at the sky! The smallest shit you could think of, but I appreciate and love it SO much! They say if you get through your worst days, then the best days are that much better. And its because of those hard days, those days you literately want to DIE, are the reason I can enjoy everything like I do now. Its not much man, I don't have much. But I have love in my life, I have LIFE in me. I am so much more mature than I've ever been. Much more informed and I'm so thankful to everyone who helped me on this journey. And I'm so thankful to God I never gave up. I would not be able to enjoy all of these things if I did..
Sorry for the long post! I hope I can comeback one of these days, maybe another few months and paychecks from now LOL. I'll buy a decent wheel and figure this all out again soon!
Thank you for putting up with me over the years, you guys rock.